Saturday, September 11, 2010

I'm losing it

Okay so my mother in law often talks about how she is worried about her 80 year old mother's memory because she sometimes repeats herself. Well I am 25 and I am losing it!!

-A couple of days ago while I was waiting for my English muffin to cook in the toaster I took out 2 different knifes in a matter of 2 minutes. Yikes!
-I often wash my face twice in the shower and don't realize until the 2nd time that I have already done it (and I take 5 minute showers).
-I forgot to buckle Katelyn up in her car seat a couple of days ago and she was the one to tell me. -Sometimes I tell people things that are private and when they ask me about them, my reply is, "Who told you that?" Um, I did! What the crap!
-And this one is my favorite. Sometimes someone will say something to me (usually Stephen) and then I try and tell him in a story about someone telling me something..that doesn't really make sense but it's him! Like he will tell me something and then I am like, "Oh my gosh someone told me this," and he's like, "Ya that was me." Embarrassing.
-And today I was trying to clean my stove with a certain cleaner and realized I was cleaning it with carpet deodorizer. LOSING IT!! Be afraid, be very afraid!

Katelyn and her Sister

Yes, I wrote that right and you read it right. And no, I am not pregnant. Katelyn has been obsessed now for about a year for having a baby sister. She talks about her constantly and trys to buy things at the store for her, like outfits and shoes. She recently said that her bathroom is hers and her sisters. Often I ask her, "What happens if it's a boy?" One time she replied that she would cry and another time she replied, "Well then just have another one and another one and another one..." Yikes. I told her yesterday that I want her to stay four forever and she replied that she needs to turn 5 to go to kindergarten so she can have a baby sister! Too funny, she is so stinking smart. That was the deal we made by the way. Anyways I was totally not even wanting another child for a very long time and I had a very special experience and now I know that shortly it will be time. I cried for a long time because I felt I wasn't prepared; physically, emotionally, we would have to trade in my beautiful luxury car for a mini van, and I feel like our house is too small. In a matter of weeks I went from feeling like NO WAY to now I am baby hungry. Crazy. I still feel like I am too young to have 3 kids but here are the positives. We own our own home. Stephen has his college completed and a steady job. I can stay home with our children and we can afford it. So age doesn't really matter at this point because we are prepared. Today we all went for a jog as a family. This was Katelyn's comment, "Oh man our family is tired aren't we?" I said yes and then she said, "Just like my baby sister is tired of waiting in heaven." Melts my heart. I love my kids so very much and am so excited to see what the future holds for our little family.