Lindy

http://www.deseretnews.com/article/700033763/Colorado-woman-killed-in-crash-near-Tremonton.html

My 2nd cousin was killed yesterday in a car crash. Let me first say that I am not writing this because I need any one's sympathy. I am fine. I actually was not really that close to her, which now makes me pretty sad that I didn't take the time to get to know her. It's been a while since someone I am related to has past away. I didn't think it bothered me that bad and then last night I just was bawling, I felt like I couldn't breath. It scares me because when I think of death for me, I think I will be old. And that is not necessarily true. My cousin was 23 and had 3 children under the age of 4. I can't get the image out of my head of them being in the car still and being so afraid with no one to comfort them. It literally breaks my heart. I think what hits so close to home is that she is a young mother like me. Life is so fragile, and this has taught me to make the most of it. I am so thankful to be alive and to have my immediate family members living, what a great blessing that is. I think that sometimes the LDS people over simplify death. When someone dies we say, "Oh well they are in a better place." Yes that thought is comforting but it will probably be another 70 years before her children will get to see her. In the meantime her husband will be a single dad with three small children who will have to grow up without a mother. That is really sad. I think a lot of people also think that when something like this happens it was meant to be. I don't think God works that way. I think that we are all supposed to die and there are different ways for that to happen. I don't think he took her intentionally, I think he doesn't intervene that closely with our lives. But I don't really know, those are just my thoughts. Anyways, I hope that everyone who reads this can be a little more thankful for their current situation and not take advantage of the ones you love. Thanks for reading.