Written on May 5th...I just got done watching a video from a friend's blog and bawled my eyes out. I am literally sitting here with tears and snot running down my face. I also got really teary eyed reading Amberly's blog. I feel like such a fool. The people that made an offer on our house backed out due to not being able to get financing. I have been up and down with my emotions on not moving, and I have been a little sad about it. After watching this video I just thought how petty and stupid I have been. One of the biggest reasons why I am upset is because I am embarrassed that I told everyone we are moving and now we are not. I feel like I lied although I didn't. This woman was burned all over in a plane crash and is not embarrassed about that! So why am I? I am not very patient person and this has been a learning lesson for me. I kind of feel like it's humbled me a bit too. I am just so thankful to have such a wonderful family. I have the most handsome, supportive husband that a girl could ask for. I have two wonderful children who have vibrant, spunky personalities and they love me to death. (On a side note, Katelyn was having a hard time going to Primary on Sunday and lovingly told me, "I freaking hate Primary." Nice.) Preston runs up to me all the time and hugs me, and now when I ask him if he wants to go to bed he replies NO and shakes his head. I love them both so very much and am so thankful that Heavenly Father entrusted me in their care and that he sent them to me and not to someone else. I just recently reconnected with an old friend on facebook who is now in the Peace Corp and is living in the Philippines. I was a little embarrassed to tell her that I don't have a college degree and I am "just a stay at home mom". That is ridiculous. I love being a mom!! I wouldn't change my life for anything, so why am I embarrassed to say that? I am so thankful that I already own a beautiful house. We were able to buy it when I was 20 and Stephen was 21, and it hasn't foreclosed! That is a blessing that we can afford it and we can save. I am thankful that we can continue to save even more in anticipation for moving sometime in the future. I am so thankful for my new found friends in the Kuna 8th Ward. I feel so close to these women and their friendship came just at the right time, so I am glad that I get to still be in their group. I am thankful for my Savior and the love that he has for me. I know that he is aware of me. I may not have the strongest testimony in all aspects of the church, but I have a very strong testimony of God and Jesus Christ, and for that I am thankful.
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I'm sorry the sell of your house fell through. We were fortunate that Kacy and her family moved into our old house so we didn't have to sell it. But then, we would still be living there if they hadn't asked about renting it from us. We knew for over 4 months that we were going to move and didn't tell any of our friends. That was hard. Then when we finally had a date for moving and told them, they didn't believe us because we hadn't been talking about a possible move. While I love my new house, I don't love the new payment. I have to be extra careful in my spending habits now and I don't like it one bit!!! At least you didn't have a house in mind to buy and get all excited about it, just to be let down. Someday it will all be right for you and I hope it's sooner than later. Hugs to you.
Kendra, have I ever told you how freakin awesome I think you are!
I am sorry that your moving plans feel through. I understand about feeling stupid for telling people something exciting is going to happen and then it doesn't. Then you have to deal with the let down of it not happening as well as letting other people know what's going on and it just....well it sucks!
I am happy that you can see the good things in your life. The blessings that you do have. Sometimes when your heart has been set on something and it falls through it's hard to see your blessings. Kendra, I love that we are friends. I so wish I had more time to kick it with my side kick! Love you girl!
Kendra - I am sorry about your house. I would be sad too. So much excitement and anticipation... and then to be let down. But look at you - honestly, I feel like whenever you have a trial (that you share on your blog) you have a gift to look on the bright side of things. I think you rock and I miss you from afar :)!Plus, I am a little bit jealous that everyone in the 8th ward is such good friends now... leave it to me to move right when things are getting fun :).
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