This is crazy because yesterday in the shower I was thinking how I wanted to write a real post. Not one about cute kids or something fantastic but something real. And then I got a challenge from my friend Kami to do just that. So here it goes. Sometimes I wonder what's the point of going to church when you have young children. I have 2 kids under the age of 3 and I am in the hall the most of the time. If I am able to sit in the class, you can guarantee I am not actually paying attention because I am feeding Preston snacks to keep him happy. I realized that I thoroughly enjoy the social aspect of church, but what good does that do me? And when my "friends" don't say hi, I get really sad. I know I need to make more of an effort to get some spirital time in for me.
I have been yearning for a best friend. I have lost some recently due to different reasons, and it makes me really sad. Along time ago I didn't really make an effort for friends but I realized that I should be reaching out because others probably feel the same way I do, well I am tired. I don't want to be the one who always initiates a friendship. I want a friend to laugh with, cry with, call when we need something and even when we don't. I want someone to hang out with frequently and be able to trust them with my secrets. I give a lot in a friendship and I expect a lot also.
Yesterday I was busy all day long and I was wishing I had some time to be alone. Well I got 10 minutes alone in the shower and realized I don't like to be alone.
So those are some bad thoughts, and now here are some blessings.
1. We recently got a new car for Stephen that I love and when I get to drive it I feel super hot because it's clean and there are no car seats.
2. Preston's 2 front teeth have come in and he is just funny lookin' but still cute. He is a very happy yet very intense baby. We love having him in our home.
3. Katelyn told me a couple of days ago that she had to go potty, I have been just taking her every 2 hours. Her accidents are rare.
4. I absolutely love being a stay at home mom, especially in the summer because there are so many fun activities to do and I think I have figured out how to handle 2 kids in public. Today we went swimming together and we had a great time.
5. My car needs new tires, which sucks but my life has been really good that I am always waiting for something bad to happen, so when this happened I thought, "Sweet, we can handle that, and now that's out of the way." It was sort of a relief in a weird way.